The Dark Side of Pregnancy
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In the video below, I detail some of the physical and emotional things I’ve gone through the first 20 weeks, halfway, since becoming pregnant. I want to point out first and foremost that this experience is completely my own and I did not make this video with any intention other than I wish I had been more prepared for what my body could go through when growing a life. It’s also important for me to say that Greg and I recognize how lucky we are to even be able to become pregnant, and we do not take that for granted for one second.
That being said, I still wish someone had told me sooner that it’s okay to hate pregnancy. We’re often taught as women that we should be “glowing”, and this should be one of the most rewarding and fulfilling experiences of our lives, and I can say it has been exactly the opposite of that. Being pregnant has been the biggest challenge I have ever had to face. Period. And feeling so torn about those miserable feelings has caused me a tremendous amount of guilt. So to all women out there, feel how you feel about pregnancy.
In this video I failed to mention all of the symptoms I’ve had, including:
extreme nausea like you cannot imagine
vomiting
headaches that last for over 24 hours (and you can’t take ibuprofen)
cramping
crazy bloating, gas, and constipation
fatigue and exhaustion
round ligament pain
insomnia
anxiety
lack of zest for life (this is a big one)
Despite how I have physically felt, our baby remains healthy and exactly as he should be. That has provided me comfort and solace throughout this and I am so grateful.
I would also be remiss if I did not mention how incredibly grateful I am to my friends and family, and to have Greg as my husband and my partner. I simply cannot imagine going through this experience without such a positive person in my closest corner. And I’m so lucky for that. He has stepped up in ways that I will truly be forever thankful for. Since becoming sick, he has taken over ALL household duties and so much more. He does all the cooking, cleaning, errands, brings me snacks, everything…not to mention supporting me emotionally through all of my distress. I cannot express how much I love that man and appreciate him. I cannot wait to see him become a father.
I hope you enjoy this video and hopefully some of you can relate. Lastly, sorry my sweatshirt is old and stained.
Love you fam. Women run the world.
